Big emotions within; as we try to grasp onto our new realities.
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Dear Frenemy,
Here we go again! The tug of war that has been the dynamic of our relationship. One minute I'm consumed by the past, and put into a box that you and society have created… The next moment; I am reminded who I truly am in Christ, and the box has been demolished into pieces, and becomes nothing but a faint memory. Placing people into my life to distract me on the path that lies ahead! Old wounds resurface; and those who don't wish me well, come in and out of my life, but only to monitor and drain what little energy that is within me. At times; I feel empowered by the Love, Mercy, and Power of my Lord and Savior! For choosing an underdog like myself, who has been consistently rejected by loved ones, and embraced by enemies! I see your slick moves and head games that you play, frenemy of mine! However, I tend to keep falling into your traps, but learning to not dwell as long, remembering who's by my side through it all! Little to no support in the flesh; good move there! But I am beyond grateful for the support and love that I do have, and an Almighty Father who always provides higher and bigger than we could ever imagine! We do this dance on a regular basis; which I thank you for, because it is a platform for Endurance and Strength. As the attacks keep coming, I will eventually no longer be phased by you! So I guess I would like to say thank you frenemy of mine! For all the lies, betrayal, deceit, pain, and loss… Because at the end of the tug-of-war we do oh-so-well; there will be a Stronger, Disciplined, and Wiser Warrior. Who has the One (destroyer of souls and flesh) right beside me, smiling as your days are literally numbered! Not yours for long, Warrior-In-The-Making AKA Anointed Prodigal :) Here I sit in the beauty of your presence!
Unconditional love; not even close to what others are capable of! Meeting your children right where we are; no prerequisites needed, loving on all of us in the midst of us feeling defeated! What we see is nothing compared to what is unseen by our natural eyes. Others hold on to temporal things, and your children are holding on to you, our Eternity! Equipping us with the Armor of God; identity in you, and special gifts that are meant to bless others, as well as part of the weapons to defeat what is not of you! True identity, purpose, and worth can only be found in you! Peace, Justice, Love, Mercy, and Kindness… A quarter of who you truly are! Out here using others to heal and bind the wounded; while your rebellious children out here using others for their own agendas. Acting out from childhood trauma’s… Then it's you that gets blamed; but it's really Free Will that is at the reins! Thank you for all that you are; and what you continue to do through your children. Naysayers are going to keep running their mouths, but the day you return all knees will bow down! Dear Present Self,
I am so proud of you! I mean really look at who you were 2-3 years ago, you are not the same person! I know that you struggle with this concept most of the time; and the people from your past recirculate to remind you of who you used to be, but that is no longer the case! You have grown weary of the things and people that used to give you pleasure; and have matured to a new level and understanding of life and yourself. The awareness of needing a spiritual foundation and to overall be healthy on all levels, that is major growth all by itself! My dear, you are now in the messy middle and it feels like you haven’t moved much in this life, since you have decided that you wanted purpose and to be changed. It’s a pace child! Not a sprint, and you are going the speed that is necessary for your journey, and for change to be a lifestyle vs a temporary state of mind. Stop comparing yourself to others; what is meant for you, you will not have to chase, beg, or change for it! We are all on different paths, unique personalities, and gifts that were meant to be blessings to others. (Stop dwelling on what was and what is not, let’s focus more on the present!) You are unconditionally Loved by the Father! Even though your family did not know how to love you. You are Victorious! Even though you feel like you’re far behind and barely keeping up. You are a Warrior! Even though you feel defeated most of the time. This too shall pass; and all things work together for the good. Stay focused on the present moment. Armor up for the trials and life lessons. Realize you are Protected, Loved, and Wonderfully made; despise your current circumstance, you are not alone! With Love, Your Sis in Christ There is a season to grieve and a season to leave; people and toxic circumstances.
There is a season for love and a season for despair; but that is where the most growth originates from. A season to laugh and a season to cry... A season to live and multiply! A season of fear; and waiting in the shallow end until it's safe to come out. A season of betrayal and a season of redemption.... Recognize the season you are in; and realize that the Christ within will guide us, and not be misguided or blinded by the seasons that has transpired. In the end; each season is temporary, and created to mold us into the Warriors we truly are, enemy defeated by the Almighty hand of God! - S.Q.S (O.W.V. Blog) Dear People Pleaser,
Why? That’s a good question, why are we beyond concern for others' responses or reactions, and afraid to create and stick to boundaries? Who? The people pleaser are the broken souls who walk around with unresolved trauma and conflict; seeking to be loved, valued, and wanted. Being the things that we wished were received, and staying in that “extra mile gear” to maintain our relationships. Sad! Yes, this is very sad indeed! In return for striving to please others with the wrong intentions, we are creating unhealthy relationships and becoming drained in the process. Now What? Being aware of our “people pleasing” is the first step; and being honest with ourselves and others would be next, which ends up creating healthier boundaries as a result. Conclusion… We have to heal this version of ourselves; and we are not able to do that on our own. We must surrender and let go of the things that were never meant for us to carry from the start! We must realize that what we seek in others; only God can truly fulfill and provide in us, resulting in a healthier soul and being a blessing to others naturally. It is OK to say no, to have standards or boundaries, it doesn’t make us better than anyone else, it creates a healthier dynamic with yourself and others! We are WORTHY of Beautiful and Amazing Relationships & Things, but we must believe this first, and realize our true identity in Christ! With Love, Your Sister in Christ (O.W.V. Blog ) Who are you? The Arrogant Ones; who lift their noses with each title obtained behind one's name.
Who are you? The Judgmental Ones; who question other people's actions, based on what YOU would do. Who are you? The Insecure Ones; who bully others out of things they are too intimidated to do. Who are you? The Single Parent Shamers; counting the children that don't belong to you! Condemnation of status, and counting baby daddies, I think it's time for you to find a new hobby boo. Who are you? The Racist Ones; who think they are better, based on the color of their skin. Creating generations of hatred & division, proud of what is, but stumble when confronted and put in one's place. Who are you? Who are we; to think we are bigger and better than anyone other than the Great I Am, Jesus Christ? It's time to humble ourselves, because the wrath of God is not something to mock, or play with! You think you are bad and bold now, but I am here to tell you all things are temporary, and the way we live now, please believe we will pay for it sooner or later. Who are you? - Obstacle Warriors Vibez Blog Seeking release from the strongholds of the mind and the past; doing the inner work, but always end up, to what seems like the start. Lessons in the present, but too focused on the obstacles and future; so we repeat the tests of trials, and continue the conflict within.
Wounds are buried as deep as the loved ones who have lost their lives; some because of their own personal struggles, others because it was just their time. We become bitter instead of better; and our enemies triumph over the misery we created, the prison we stay in, because so much has happened, and a miracle is like holding one's breath. Our soul has died and we are now just living life on Neutral, Fear, Anger, Resentment instead of living life to the fullest. It does not happen overnight; our wounds must heal, and we must forgive ourselves and others. It's a journey to live at your full potential, not an overnight remedy, or a "3-keys-to-a better-you seminar." We are all different and not all "methods" or "keys" are one-size-fits-all. Work is required within, but some of us are too broken to even begin. The time wasted on the losses, pain, resentment, is time that could be used towards healing and moving forward. We all have our wars within; that has broken us down to a level we never imagined; but holding on to the pain and hurt, and giving up and numbing what should be healed, extends the sentence to the prison we have created, and the process of release starts within. -S.Q.S💞 Dear Messy Middle,
Peace be with you! For we have overcome the worst versions of ourselves, but we still have a lot of wounds and trauma that keeps us stagnant in certain areas of our lives. We are all well aware of the before and after scenario, but very few people talk about the "messy middle." There tends to be this jump from being a "hot mess" to a "triumphed" King or Queen, but only a handful of people discuss the messy middle version of themselves. True transformation is not so black and white; there are many moments of slipping back into old habits, behaviors, or mentality. Triggered by circumstances, or it is just a comfort and/or coping skill, that is safer to run to over trying something new and healthy. Outside looking in; this person who is in the messy middle stage of life, comes off like change is not in that person's future, and are doomed to one strongholds and addictions. That is why it's important to have a strong Spiritual Foundation; to keep fighting on our behalf when it doesn't seem like things will change or get better. Genuine change includes detours, relapse, and overall regression periods. Accept that; but let's not stay there or be defined by those periods. We are human; and some wounds take longer to heal from than others. So let's give ourselves grace, and give grace to others who are currently struggling in the messy middle instead of judging them. It's not an ideal spot to be in; but it is temporary, and this too shall pass! We are Loved... We are Wanted... We are Chosen... We are Warriors... We are children of the most high King! With Love, Your Sister in Christ Seeking something of meaning; outside of the misery that at times consumes one, that later is a diagnosis of depression, or a form of some other Mental Health Disorder.
Society is teaching us to be defined and limited based on our struggles; so challenging ourselves is completely off the table! This has become generation Mental Health and Identity, with a side of recording our moments when the storms have hit us tremendously. People pleasing on another level; trying to find our identities through the job titles, trauma, and others we put subconsciously on a pedestal.. Not knowing they secretly wish they could have the strength that we are not yet aware of, because who we are is intertwined with this broken world! Step out of this world and into God's Word. We are truly loved beyond any human interaction or encounter! We must see ourselves the way our father sees us; and operate accordingly. Baby steps.. big steps.. just take a step and leap of faith. Each day is an opportunity one should grasp, before it's too late! - Society VS The Word |
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